“Mei yesa kyun hun mein yesa kyun hoon
Mei yesa hi hoon jaisa hi hoon”
This song aptly suggests the state of my mind when I wanted to do a write up on myself….
This has been in fact, the toughest write up because on self introspection I have found that I have a split persona with completely different attitude and behaviour…. One part of me wants to achieve great feats, raise my voice against the peccant offences committed in our society, be both a responsible citizen to this nation and a responsible daughter shouldering my mom’s onus, take charge of my life and pursue my goal no matter how hard it is to accomplish (or at least make a sincere effort in fulfilling it…). Hmmmmm….. Quite a miss perfect!!!!!
But this miss perfect part of me takes a back seat mostly… The devilish pimp grins at me most of the times and I succumb to its wishes in a trice. I become sluggish to take up responsibilities, or take up a stand for a cause, or procrastinate my plan for future. I easily get satisfied with what I am today and forget to follow my goals (the typical me!!). I turn self- centred and all I care about is my happiness.
I guess this is me… all of us have 2 different facets and most of us would have realised that…. What I am trying to do is keep the devil in me dormant and try to be the Miss Perfect (if not completely, at least to an extent). Well, any sincere effort will never fritter away and my efforts to keep my devil at bay will succeed!!
All the best in ur quest to become Miss Perfect. How liveable life will be if u become that!! :-)
ReplyDeleteAs u said, every one of us suffers from a split personality like disorder.. How we overcome the odds and supress the devil from raising its ugly head remains to be seen.